No! You don't need to do that it will make you more worst. Your situation will become more harder and worst than before. Whatsoever you do at the end you will experience the good sides if you choose good side before and bad sides if you choose bad sides before. Thereis aalways a so called consequences in everything you do so put your mind in your heart with your brain with you along the way to move on from the bad past. Past will make you strong so learn from the past.......