I think the real question is, why are you filled with so much hate that it dominates your life? All your comments are bitter and sad. I can only feel sorry for you and recommend that you go and seek professional help. You must be walking around with the weight of the world on your shoulders.... its going to be ok, there is help out there for you.

It's time to turn off your computer and address the real issues that have brought you to this point in your life. Go hug a tree or something, you may feel better about yourself.