I feel the same way, our family also is not well off but we get by and I relate to your sentiments of being uncertain about the future. I say don't give up and try to find a job just to let you save up. You can try to get airdrops and bounty in crypto on the side so you can have other sources of income. Once you are more financially able then pursue the career that you would want and passionate about. Its' a hard road, you'll make mistakes on the way but you'll learn and make wiser decisions in the future. Good luck to us!