It makes me laugh when I'm realizing my promises to myself to not gamble again whenever I'm losing in all in bet. After that when I have bitcoin again, I would think to gamble it first and ending up losing all of it 
Now I had control to myself but still gamble a few bets sometimes
You are not the only that struggles with these promises. You can neutralize yourself but you can never say that you will quit, right? Now I had control to myself but still gamble a few bets sometimes
Addiction will stay as your addiction no matter what, the only thing that will change is having our control to ourselves. There are a lot of people not really quitting their gambling activities since that is really hard instead they are making their own ways to control themselves, they might not be addicted but they are still winning with great control since they already know how bad to be addicted to it.