We learn from our past, they say. I've been through an abusive relationship. That often blurs the lines that define my space even today.
To know this helps me not to repeat my past mistakes but the lesson has come with a price.
I have anxiety almost everyday during conversations with friends when simple questions like where are you right now?, did you end up meeting that old friend on the weekend? end up worrying me.
I always have this self-realization that I may not have any control over what happens in my life but i always have complete control over the choices i make. I always have a choice. My future is always in question and my life is at constant peril of spiraling out of control. This is why I must find ways to take responsibility, grow wiser, and orient myself to this activity called life. If you're friends are asking your whereabouts it's because they care for you. It's not that they want to take control over your life. If someone is making his/her move to make you feel better, try to be a little bit cynical and weigh things out so that you can tell if that person is sincere with his/her intention. If you can sense that s/he is, open up, break some walls and create some bridges that'll connect the both of you. You should stop worrying with their simple questions. Calm down and be strong for yourself. Yes, easier said than done, but it doesn't mean that it's impossible.