I know I have responsibility for my money. It's my choice and I don't hate anybody, I just hate myself
if you want to give up and will not work at the ICO again, then that is your right, I will not forbid it, but in my opinion if you blame yourself, that is not good.
do not regret it for too long, and still be passionate about finding another job that is more profitable if you want to leave the ICO.