Human psychology is interesting. We really look for the cheapest ways to make ourselves feel better at times. If it works for you, then great. Though I noticed that you see yourself special in a negative way. Lol, that's quite hilarious and unexpected too. Personally, to be honest, I do not consider myself to be special in any way. Unique maybe, I could agree to that. But then more than a billion others also lay claim to the uniqueness. So, this so called uniqueness doesn't make me special actually. Everyone should just do their thing and forget all the pettiness.