Every struggles is a test in life, you should learned your lesson from your mistakes.
I am happy to read at the end of the post that you are free.
there is no happiness in life if you are not free.
Yeah mentally if you are peace then nothing will worry you irrespective even if btc price rises form here it will not hurt the OP. Byt btc is volatile that one should be knowing and accordingly only investment needs to be done else it becomes difficult for people to know.