.01 BTC sent Pubert.  I'm sending this because I sincerely care for your life as another human being, not because I think that .01 BTC will in any way help your financial circumstance, nor do I feel it's my responsibility to help you financially.  But, I want you to accept it and know that there's genuine care backing that BTC.

Have you considered meditation?  Meditation has scientific, logical, and (to me) experiential validity as a means of increasing the total sum of peace and happiness in one's life.  In fact, many people for thousands of years have chosen an ascetic lifestyle so they can be alone and discover how to be happy -- that is, they choose to be alone so they can discover what is intrinsically beneficial, that which is inside of each and every one of us that has the potential to make us happy.

I truly believe the potential for happiness is with us always, but that, in your case, it might simply be covered up.  It's kind of like how the sun is always shining, even on a cloudy day, but you just can't always see it because sometimes the clouds are so dense.  But, if you concentrate hard enough, you can still feel its warmth and see the light shining through, making everything around you grow.

My advice -- try to establish hope in SOMETHING.  Even if your life sucks, maybe someone else can still benefit from you being alive.  Make someone smile; find a purpose; do something that gives even a tiny bit more significance to your life here.

In any case, just know that I care.  I want you here.