Yeah, it looks like you are in the anger phase right now. You know, there is a theory (I don't really know if it is scientific but still) which describes the feelings, or stages, which are experienced by the terminally ill patients after they find out about their diagnosis and the state they are in. If we draw an analogy here, when the market first started to crash, you were in the denial phase. You refused to believe that the market is going down and it is for real and for long. Probably, you even added to your losing position when you in fact should have closed it immediately.

Now you seem to be in the anger phase and want the market to go to hell even if it means losing a tremendous amount of money for you personally. But then you will proceed to the next phase called bargaining when you will try to negotiate with the market in some way, that you will know better next time if you are allowed to break even, that you will learn how add stop-losses and whatnot. Instead, there is the depression phase awaiting which seems to be self-explanatory. And after that comes the acceptance phase where you come to terms with your failure as a trader.