Should i just say am finished or not?
That's up to you. Whining about your circumstances probably won't do much good if people are being prudent with their sMerits.
I took a look at your post history and it's full of garbage one-line posts, which are typical of bounty spammers. Nothing you write adds anything to the threads you posted in--those posts are generic "rah rah bitcoin" posts, and they don't stand out from all the other similar posts.
Just FYI, a meritocracy is not supposed to reward people based on their hardships, poverty, or a person's estimations of how good they're doing. A meritocracy rewards talent and performance. Sadly, most members who are here for bounties don't have any talent in writing and basically have very little to say.
I think this rule will be very wise if the person who can give merit is a moderator.
No. No. No.