You really not need to worry. One thing I'll like you to understand is that no matter how much you get worried now, your worry would really not change the state of things right now. I would advise you to really calm down, remove your mind from whatever challenge that is faced with crypto trading, remove your mind from the drop in value of your coin in your wallet while you HODL for a long time and I can assure you that you would be fine in the future as things would get better with time.
Honestly, I really love this forum because almost all people give a very positive advise when one get depressed, its a very cool, Im much aprreciate this act. Well, come back to your problem, first up I feel so sorry to hear your problem guy and i advise you to keep you head calm and afterward throw all the negative thinking out of your mind and be optimistic right now. Yep, I complete support you to HODL if you cant manage this situation. Let think positively, everything will be alright. Be calm and try to find another methods.