Sometimes I want to kill myself. Its so unfortunate that I never heard about bitcoin back then. It's something I would of been all over because I always knew the central banking system is a complete scam. Its just unlucky I never heard it or came across it. I'm in deep financial trouble now and about to be homeless.
I don't mean to pile on in face of your financial woes. But you seem to be mired in self-defeatism.
You are not unfortunate for not learning of Bitcoin before now. You are instead fortunate for learning of Bitcoin before next year.
What you do with that knowledge is up to you. I know many who took a pass in 2010, in 2011, in 2012,... There's a lesson in there somewhere.