Don't be eager for merits,dont crave for merits,do not yearn for them,this are signs that you'll go back to spamming the forum when you get them, just enjoy yourself on the forum,contribute effectively and be of assistance to someone all without merits in mind, probably then you could just be in line to earn one or two..

And goodness, you sure have to clear your post history,it sure isn't doing your cause any good whatsoever,neither does it look like you've been trying your best.

In life whatsoever you desire so much,and can't stop thinking about,somwthing you lose sleep about hardly ever comes.