I also feel bad because the $1.5m is my investment money. I dont want touch it or spend it on myself, except for investing. Its currently 67% crypto and 33% stocks. So I lost pretty much all of my spending money, and I feel pretty down over it... a lot of people have a million dollars net wealth, its not that much. I dont have a house or anything.
Honestly it's good you feel bad. It'd be scarier to have lost so much and not feel bad. Remember the feeling before you consider gambling again.
And you're objectively in an extremely good financial position. There's not much you can do with $1.5M that you can't do with $1.15M
Sure, lots of people have a bigger net-worth than you but you're doing way better than the vast majority. And worst case if you need a break from it all, take a year off in somewhere exotic with a cheap cost of living. Maybe like Thailand? For 25k you could have a pretty great year, and make a lot of memories that will last your life.
It's hard to see the situation clearly when you're in the inside, but honestly yours is fine
