The fact you ask help after huge losses means you actually don't want to kill yourself and face your problem.
The fastest way to solve your emotional problem is by keeping yourself busy, either with hobby, job or build deeper relationship with those you know. Even though asking for professional or family help would be better. You might want to use application such as
https://freedom.to/ which block/hide application and websites and it's not limited to help gamblers, but many other addition as well.
What kind of help you need? Di you really lost such a big money in gambling? I dont believe that. I think that if someone has such a big money he would never spend time in this forum because we are here for making some money. Honestly speaking if I have such money you will never see me in this forum. I would just buy coins and trade or hold and doing my regular business.
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I have read up lots of ridiculous stories about gamblers do lose out some serious amounts of bitcoins due to emotions.I cant really blame since its your money after all and i cant deny the feeling of craving for more bitcoins even you do know that you had already profited.Not accepting loss bets is one of the mistakes yet it would really urge you to play even on single bet then after that it would be an another story since chances of playing more is there.No one can help you but yourself and since you do still have millions then you should not gamble again if you dont like to lose it all.
It means that you have ruined your life and now you need help. Why you didnt think about your future before losing such great money in gambling. Didnt you know that gambling is the worst thing in the world and the consequences will always be bad? Now you should continue gambling for the rest of your life. If you have something left bet on them also. You will recover your lost money by this way.