THX for the answer, no its not from 'something illegal' its just that i am bad at writing things down so i saved some pictures in icloud but didn't name it after the wallet/coin so i can see seeds in my list but no correlation with a coin name :/
Also i remember setting up some monero wallet but using that same seed for other cryptonote coins too but no idea which ones ^^  so i guess there are some lost coins now hm ?