Well finally the resync just finished. All missing transactions are showing except the one which I tried to "double spend" with higher fees. Is there any chance that this transaction https://www.blockchain.com/btc/tx/118e0e9d0b04d5e334023701db0bfca963770b245d556465b091bf21acaa748c?show_adv=true will eventually return to my wallet if no confirmations arise?

The "-zapwallettxes" parameter didn't work. Do you recommend any service to "accelerate" this transaction? Thanks for all the help. I'm calmer now, at least what one could be after this massive dump by the illuminaty XD