It's only proper that when you searching for a light through a part and it's futile you change part.

You have been really so much consumed by your merit hunting so much you getting obsessed and still no result to show from it. 

Don't you think you just not doing something right?

With this you persistent merit post you creating a negative impression of yourself to other members(possible merited)  some might even have you on there ignore list

Merit is not as hard as you make it look you just not directing this effort in the right way. Take a break from making post just learn