Yet, in this the most dire moment of my life my whole body started to feel enveloped by unfathomable love, unadulterated love beyond anything I can explain.  I was wrapped up in it and I had an otter body experience where I heard a voice tell me that I'm loved more than anything in the world.  God knows all, even down to the tiniest particle and all is God.  I felt no judgement or condemnation for my actions, this feeling covered or enveloped me till I was so happy that I couldn't speak and tears ran down my eyes.