I came here and gave my sob story.  I pleaded my case profusely/aggressively trying to show my worth. I asked for forgiveness. Over the past months I’ve read countless ban posts of the same ilk.  I now feel foolish to put it lightly.  For the last 8 months I’ve read countless Meta posts, re-read the rules a 100 times, wrote 5 pages of a planned 10 page paper on plagiarism (this is one difficult task but I did learn a lot from my half way finished effort..for instance you can even plagiarize yourself quite easily), and thought about how I could come back here and prove my self-worth and be deserving of another shot here.

However it became more and more clear to me that no matter what I said or did I’d likely have absolutely no chance at coming back.  Though I have given up hope completely, I did recently stumbled on the “funny ban appeal threads” and was compelled to write this..  Some are pretty damn funny I admit. Many are the same nonsense and really piss poor excuses. But I know personally not all are bull shit fairy tales.  After reading my name being specifically mentioned in Meta recently and falsehoods being suggested, I felt I had to set a few things straight.  I didn’t make one thing up that I said.  I’m embarrassed by my rant..but I was being honest. Too honest I now realize.  However, I realize the sob story is something no one is going to know if it has any merit to or not (outside a few buddies of mine here), nor give a shit about in all likelihood!  I realize now why I’m banned and others whom committed other terrible acts such as fraud..are not.  My crimes are easily provable. I do get that completely now.

I honestly don’t know what I was thinking by making those several posts that day I plagiarized.  I really don’t.  Not why I made them, but why I plagiarized..nor wtf was going on in my head that day. I made the posts because I promised Atriz my signature manager I would never let him down on my post count.  What I made from that campaign in a week hardly pays for a single meal out where I live.  It wasn’t about the money what so ever.  Well, it kind of was. The more money I can make in life..the more I can give back.  Every single satoshi ever made on those campaigns can be seen going right back to charity, here on this forum. These things I wanted to set the record straight with. I am not signature campaign money hungry for personal gain.

For 8 months I’ve watched many opportunities pass by where I feel I could have added value to the forum. My post history is pretty telling of what kind of forum member I believe I mostly was.  My topics are either detailed posts to really try and add value here or for collectibles purposes. 

Hilarious and Theymos…I respect you guys and I fully understand where you’re coming from.  However, you’ve both stated you’d be willing to let a member back who you feel would contribute positively moving forward (likely with stipulations).  Besides my lapse in common sense one day..I’ve done nothing but try and contribute positively here.  Plenty of it being pre-signature days too.  So..put me to the test!! Fuck my signature, hell ban me from it for good.  Give me a chance and I will still be here, still contributing, whether now or a year from now. Easy promise I can make/keep.
 
I appreciate everyone who spanked me verbally but in a professional way.  I’m really thankful for those who I either don’t know or hardly know, whom showed a bit of faith in me..  LoyceV , DarkStar, Lauda, Pharmacist, JetCash, and several others to be more specific.  I respect all of you quite a bit. I know you all care a lot about this place as do I and you work hard for nothing more than to better bitcoin. I'm sorry for my selfish and childish actions.  Period.