This is just my two cents on bitcoin gambling.
I made quite a bit of money back in December when the bitcoin price was roaring. I quit my job since then and been obsessed with bitcoin investment.
Things didn't turned out as people hoped . Bitcoin price went downhill and i started to chase my loss. How ? Yeah, as stupid as this may sound.. Bitcoin Dice sites. I have lost over $50k in past years gambling in dice sites like Primedice, Bitsler & Yolodice. My personal life was devastated with sights of depression and bad relationship with my wife.
It was almost like i was somebody else when i click that auto roll. The adrenaline was like a drug that got me high. As much as i regret quitting my job and betting high on auto roll I learnt to forgive myself.
My advice to you guys is that betting minimum on 2X with 100% increase on loss will NEVER pay your bill.
Sorry to know your loss, but I am glad you realize that it's your fully mistake and you learn to forgive yourself. At least, you get the important lesson from gambling itself, and you can try to forget the past, trying to make a new life with your wife, ask her to forgive you and promise never be like what you did before. Everything will change as you start a new life with your family, and don't forget to search new jobs and remember to not expecting more in the gambling game because you already have the bad experience in the past.