You sound like cryptohunter now and that's not a good thing. May I suggest that you take a break from the forum, 2-3 weeks, a nice road trip perhaps? Or a hike in the mountains. That's what I do when I feel that modern hyper-connectivity is getting the better of me. But at the very least stop digging the fucking hole. Funny as it is to watch - it won't give you what you want.