Thanx for the support and feedbacks. I have really sorted myself out in the past few months.

Making plans for the future, going out with friends and family, taking a walk at the park &  basically trying to enjoy the simple things in life.

The gambling took a lot from me but i was conscious enough to not let it sink me to the bottom.

I still got plenty enough to get by and in the mean time look for jobs .

I understand that there may be many who have gone through what i have and sadly like some of you said ' You dont really learn this kind of things until you go through the experience itself'.