Dude you were expendable, your purpose is done. Dunno why you question your master(s) while you fail to open your eyes. You are still in denial.
I cant decide what you are (loyalist-mock rebel-naive) for real. You saw their modus operadni as low ranking officer of theirs, aka: airdrop-zoi etc.. 

We have a proverb here: "If someone becomes a hooker should not be surprised, if she is f*cked!"