pce man
dont worry, i understand .      
You are not the first to go, imo this shows (and sux)  that you feel theres no other way to not be associated with the mafia here

look @ them try make you stay!  they know u have gold heart, and they need you to mix with their darkness to be more grey  


they dont get you are not one of them (and you are too nice to scream at them "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU ALL?!?!"  )