Since you are blind to it, it won't be real for you until you get there.
Nice god you imagine you have. Create me just to torture me for all eternity.
God works in mysterious ways....
God created all people for His glory and theirs. If you want to throw your glory away, that's up to you. God allows you this freedom... or freedom to be saved if you want. When Jesus comes back, it will be too late to change your mind.
