I quoted what you should read.
You said
this:
There's also a positive as well: (you probably can't see it given how many positive trust posts you have on your trust wall)
And you should focus on this:
It is impossible for me not to see and to forget first positive feedback I received.
And this one was a joke...
I masturbated on it for few days IIRC.

Excuse me, what am I trying to rewrite?