it seems like the cryptospace is changing your life. you need a break. you need a triple serious deliverance to cure your situation. also you need to stay away from the internet. it might help you alot. try sell off your laptops and gadget. you can lend it out for awhile. then try to join any pee group and learn how to socialize. this will help you a lot. you are really far from change.
trade can change a person's life, this often happens if we don't do it in a balanced manner so that trading does not take up all of our time so that we don't experience stress, crypto trading really requires full concentration to get profit.