I would have a little bit started to buy off the top viola if I had the funds for this, and so I have long been sitting in a very strong drawdown and hope that someday I will be able to get at least 0

I think in this matter, everyone must believe in their own decisions. we know that we ourselves will be affected by the effects that will occur when we buy or not. I suggest buying when it's appropriate, and holding back when you feel it's the best choice. in general, I choose to hold back for now.