So, what are you suggesting now? Give up the account now or what? I don't think your post is helpful, man.
Perhaps, you are right. Now it's time to say goodbye.
You in any case have the right to try to return your account, I just wanted to show you how difficult it is to turn this situation to your advantage. You are not the only member of the forum who found himself in this situation, and I'm not sure anyone has succeeded to get back banned account. If you get your account back, dozens of banned users would ask same thing, and this is not something what the admins / mods wants.
I am sorry that my post was not helpful, this is not easy time for you. If you think that there is any chance to get account back I wish you luck with that.