On a semi serious note..just talking about things can be helpful for some. Hope you feel better soon.
I already do feel like a bit of a load is off, and seeing Bob and LFC open up first helped. I just need a more positive outlook I think.
Unloading is huge, and that's probably more than 50% of the therapy process.
Mental health has been so tragically stigmatized over the years, that it pains me people still frown upon seeing a psychiatrist, or even acknowledging the very real fact that there are genetic issues, beyond your control, that may be mitigated with medication.
There is absolutely no shame in it. It's part of the meta of what I'm dealing with right now in my life, at my age.
After retiring, I decided I wanted to try getting off the drugs with my therapist. Didn't work out very well. Started my first tapering cycle, and started falling to pieces at about week three. Recognized that with all the family genetic history that I'm better off medicated at my levels for the rest of my natural life. Was a very bitter pill to swallow and deal with; being resigned to living with your faulty DNA, and making peace with the fact that medication helps you be a better balanced human.
The truly awful brainfuck is when you become physically dependent on drugs you are on, and start having anxiety about whether or not the pharmacy is going to fill your anxiety medication without issue.
Anxiety about anxiety drugs.
Fuck everything about mental illness.
Seriously.