Get back in your cave QS, default trust decisions dont concern you any more.
here is another example from another lender
https://bitcointalk.org/index.php?topic=3243635.msg51396967#msg51396967There are plenty of examples of people in similar situations as the OP repaying loans similar to what the OP is asking for.
This is in no way an appropriate use of the trust system. The changes to the trust system results in your abuse not having the same impact as before, but this is still abuse.