If you were a legitimate exchange you would be spending this attention on you by explaining what happened and how you are going to address it, not by repeating yourself, pointing more fingers, and begging for people to say nice things about you. You are fighting a losing battle. Every move you make exposes your weakness more and more. You clearly don't intend on taking the advice of any of the experienced members of the community here, so enjoy the inevitable failure of your exchange as your reputation rots from the inside out.