Sorry but I can hardly believe there would be someone who spent 200.000 on gambling and then casually posts in a forum like he has lost a pen.
But in case this is your real story, then you got to visit a doctor, you're seriously addicted.
I think it's not the OPs money but maybe it is his total winning at least he got 200,000 in overall of his gambling career. But seriously OP is really addicted to gambling he needs to control himself from playing. As we can see his previous earning i think it took almost a month to gain such 200,000 EURO amount yet he just lost it.