If you already the money, forget about that especially if you are playing for more than a year.
Its a jaw dropping amount of money for sure, but its ok because you choose to be like that and its your decision to lose that kind of money. I do gamble but there's no turning back for me, I play extra money most of the time so its not that sad after many games.
It can only make you more depresses if you look at your losses over the past years of playing, it can result for you to be sad for sure. I only play occasionally in casinos and Its hard to know how much I loss on that since no records at all but in crypto online gambling, for sure you can easily know that. If you think you lose to much, then stop gambling for you to make things right.