In my free time I like to indulge in gambling, for example
pokies online gambling. To be honest, this gives me some additional energy, and if I played in a casino, then I have more energy and inspiration for work, which is good news. I dont know how this can be, but maybe the lost money motivates me, no matter how strange it sounds.
Wow, you really like risk. It is of course strange that risk motivates you, but it can be understood. Its straight unusual, I think.