Apart from severe poverty, I will say a severe depression is your issue. Poverty is one of the factor that can get you depressed.
Also, are you suffering from rejection? Are you having any kind of disability? Get up from your worries for there are many born without arms nor fit but they are doing great things, having a career and excelling in them (I don't want to mention names but you can google on it, it will inspire you).

Whatever is the issue; I mean, whatever it is, God has your answer. Put your faith and rely on God, He alone can make impossibilities in the face of mortals to be very possible. Just try and make yourself happy and God will visit you by sending help to you.