That's stinks ... I can feel you , everyone do feeling blue when they lost and start correlating every single thing happened around , such as these new patch accusations...

I've been there in your position , blame here and there .. having excessive anxiety due can't accept the fact that you busted the whole money you have and start looking to recover it through some loan funding still failed and back to blaming the game was rigged in various way.

Grow up and accept the facts around you. There's no satisfying loss but there's a wise on accepting the losses , try to learn that, pal.