No need to be jealous. I have higher expenses than middle class people (£3,500 mortgage in london monthly + monthly council tax), £800 monthly car loan, and I was hoping to bring my wife and children to a nice place this christmas. The $25,000 are money that satisfy what poor people see as "greedy needs". It's money that I am totally sure I will repay back only that would be helpful in this christmas period because it helps me. If I don't get it it's fine because I will survive without spending too much. Just that I wanted to go out for christmas somewhere else like in new york and enjoy my christmas and probably new year. This is what we all like, enjoying our life right? Or do you guys try to convince yourself people should not spend money? 
Must be nice to live such a lavish lifestyle on some one else's dime. Maybe you need to stop pretending your so rich and live within your means. You may even be able to save enough to keep your business afloat, and possibly retire some day. Just a thought.