The Catholic Church is corrupted and perverted to the core, I'm not surprised you were unable to find inner peace there. However, unconditional love is hardly dictatorial, it just means you have high expectations to live up to. I will continue to pray for your salvation from your life of sin.
The church I went to was no different from the protestant and baptist churches I visited. Over all, all of them teach the same thing. And all of them don't make much sense, or are contradictory/hypocritical. How can there be unconditional love, and eternal punishment/damnation, from the same being? How can someone claiming infinite capacity for love and forgiveness, hold petty grudges for rather benign transgressions, and punish someone for them for all eternity? How can someone with omnipotent foresight, who knows everything that has happened and will happen, set up situations he knows will lead to specific outcomes, and blame us for choices he knew we would make?
"Bless me father, for I have sinned. Today I had impure thoughts about anthromorphic fox penis.
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What do you mean, 'excommunicated'?"
LOL! XD