I guess old
af-newbie will never understand things like this, even if he is not a woman.

Interesting choice of scripture there.
af-newbie has stated he was deeply influenced by the overt and gross corruption he witnessed peddled by a nominally religious leader in his youth. Witnessing corruption and abuse he rejects religion prima facie.
This is understandable and an example of the tremendous harm that can results from violating the commandment of taking the name of God in vain aka committing evil in the name of God. Hypocrisy is incredibly destructive.
I once wandered away from Christianity but I never had anything like that kind of hurdle to overcome while finding my way back. The religious people I interacted with in my youth were to the best of my knowledge genuine and acting with goodwill.
My path back started with the realization of the practical necessity of Christianity. That sparked a later deeper introspection into the fundamentals.
The decline of Christianity is seriously damaging society, atheists acknowledgehttps://thebl.com/us-news/the-decline-of-christianity-is-seriously-damaging-society-atheists-acknowledge.htmlHow the West was won by Christianityhttps://www.mercatornet.com/features/view/how-the-west-was-won-by-christianity/23109