The difficulty is in separating this nightmare from my body, trying not to get sick or pass out, and not taking it too hard. Very frustrating moment. Ugh.

I suppose I should have taken the out with bitcoinbuilder in the last moments.

So many people are in similar shoes to my situation, I can hope it turns out well, but have to remember what's important in life. I encourage others to put this in perspective compared with war or rape or torture victims, those without limbs, those terminally ill, etc, and find some gratitude for life. It really is only money. *sigh*