I told Theymos from the start what happened to me.   The night I posted dox on the forum was one of the first times I'd "had a few" at home since the stroke.  I literally went unconscious in my chair after posting that, and when I awoke in the morning I deleted the post and worked with Theymos to clean up the damage.  I've never gotten drunk since - two beers at a social function is my absolute limit.  This may explain why Theymos suggested forgiveness.

I'm sorry if my initial post sounded like I was joining Theymos Vader.  Again, I believe Theymos feels the good that people do can outweigh the bad.  I feel the same way, but for me the "bad" does not decay and builds up.   I want to forgive faster, like he does.