That must be the spirit of a trader; everyone here must have. What are your plans like you will be continuing back with bitmex are you will find a new spot exchange like someone suggested you? Starting back with small capital must be a good plan but where you are going to resume must be more important. I am also preferring to suggest you not to try again with leveraged trading because it is just an another form of gambling.

You must take time to realize about your mistakes and building a plan on which you should be sticking all the times so that you could trade more discipline and achieve what you are dreaming for. Life is simple and trading is simple but we must need a plan to keep them simple.