Shit man It sucks to be a nocoiner.
I reverted back to where I was 3 years ago. >:[
Right after I started to break my rules I went complete shit with my decisions. Fuck. Starting again.
Hopefully I'll be smarter this time.
Few months ago I was so damn sure that I could ride this to zero because that was when I wasn't overinvested. Right after I overinvest everything went down. Fuck my luck. It should have gone upwards. Fuck.
You broke the golden rule of gambling (and high-risk investing) - never gamble with more than you can afford to lose. You need to be able to take emotions out of your decisions otherwise you'll crash and burn eventually. I am sorry you had to learn this the hard way. I'm sure you won't do the same mistake again.