To be honest, it is not that easy. I've been through a lot and with years and years of trying, I am still not that perfectly cured of addiction. I am still gambling and even though I have those times that I can still control myself, there are still those times that I can't. My will is not that strong, luckily this ECQ held myself from gambling continuously as I can understand myself much more.
Well, I guess that's the life of a gambler. We nonlonger eradicate it within ourselves totally because it is already flowing into our veins. There's no turning back for us since the first time we got the sweet taste of winning. I believe that our body will com to the point that it will seek the rush and excitement we feel there. I guess the least thing we can do is to minimize it (salute to you mate

) as much as we could.
Thanks for that, but you know, I never think of winning, that feeling of excitement as you are betting your money, no. There is just your mind that would always tell you to gamble, that there is a lot of things for you to do but you will always think of gambling. That is not the reason I gamble it is just that it is like a part of your day, without it, that day is not complete. There are even those times that if I can't gamble, I lose my temper. I am really thankful for this lockdown though, I hate it but I am also thankful since it is the reason I contained myself from gambling.