I lose and win, and I don't care for the money I deposit for gambling.
This is your own way bro, in this thread, OP wants to stay away from gambling, also they are will don't care with his money on gambling anymore.
If you wish to win you need to try, without trying you don't have chances for nothing.
Sure, Everything will be like this, anyone must try for anything he wants in his life and then will become the targets, working for it, try to do anything possible to know the results. of course in gambling, a gambler must try to bet higher to test his winning possibilities.