Your mother is your primary female role model whether you chose to acknowledge that or not. Mom was a keeper, which explains why Dad kept her. My ex wasn't so I didn't. I don't hate women. It's just a fact that the ones available to me are unsuitable for long term commitment. I'm not crying about it. I enjoy the variety.
She cheated on you, didn't she? And you're scared to love again? Be honest, your life is a bad Barry Manilow song, isn't it? Come on, admit it, we won't judge you.