Ah, sob story.
Come on, you need assist here? It's not a basketball game, dude. /s
Btw tbh, there are many, many users trying to help newbies and even high rank members like full members, Sr members, and even hero members reach their upgraded membership level by giving them merits. But merits are not for shitposting nor are they given for the type of posts you make.

Stop begging for merits.
You must have come here when users like DdmrDdmr, LoyceV, fillippone, coolcryptovator, cryptopreneurbrainboss, nullius, and many legendary users started their journey here. They never ever begged for merits but worked really hard to earn both - merits and their reputation. You should really watch them and learn from them, see the motivational threads by LoyceV, informational threads by fillippone, helpful users like suchmoon and many others have their own ways to earn merits. Create your own way, or just start walking on the path I showed you because the fact is, I can only guide you but following my guidance and reaching your destination is up to you.